peeing my pants

6 days 6 days 6 days 6 days 6 days 6 days. who wants to take a million trips to seattle this summer?

needs

bah. I've definitely been feeling homesick lately. For my friendies, and Philly, and for my family. My sister and step-mom were coming up here on Sunday for Spring break, and I've been looking forward to this for awhile. I found out today that they had to cancel last minute because of some college stuff my senior-in-high-school-rock-star sister has to do, which will be taking them to New York, instead of Portland. Automatic downer. I cried at work, I cried at the bus stop, I cried on the way home, and it didn't stop when I got here. Being in a new place is scary, and sometimes really lonely. I tend to rely on Adam alot for these kinds of things, because he's here, and well, that's what boyfriends are for. But, as life would have it he's a busy bee with work, and can't alllllways come over with milkshakes in hand.

Then I stop and remember there are other people in my life I can rely on..they just aren't as easy or convenient to get a hold of. (that and there is nothing like a hug to make everything better..which is hard to do over the phone?) Thank GOODNESS for my insomniac best friend John. I love that no matter how late it is here, plus the 3 hours, he is always available to talk, and make me laugh.

I'm also so grateful my family is somewhat tech savvy (now) and I can see their shining faces with the click of a button. Video chats make me feel so much better. Thank you thank you thank you thank you for making what a bummer day I had today end on a good note. You mean the absolute world to me. Any Philly friends have video chat? (Lois I know you do, but I'm so rarely up early enough with time to spare to see your beautiful face and chat with the littles..although it's all I want to do)

wknd

not long enough. but full of awesomeness. sometimes i wish i could just run away and never come home. relaxing is too good to stop. haircuts, beaches, good food, wrestling, snuggling, laughing, pretty car rides, etc etc. this happy bear was sad to come home.

I

Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

I just got done reading this book today. It took me less than a week. That's usually how fast I read, that last book just took me FOREVER. As my first introduction to Foer, this was a good choice for me. Not my favorite style of writing, but I loved this book. There were clear, defined characters, a story (which didn't all make sense until the end) a clear beginning, middle, end. Call me boring, but I love a traditional story. It's my favorite kind of read. All in all, I loved this book. I'm excited to read another. I just have to choose between Eating Animals, and Everything is Illuminated. Thoughts?

vulnerable?

I definitely have a hard time doing that. At the first sign of tension, or discomfort, I usually fold, and disengage ASAP. Luckily, and thankfully, Adam is really good at not letting me do that. For such a long time, my feelings have not been validated in my relationships, and I've compromised them. It's still hard, and I'm still learning, but I'm grateful for a man who continually pulls me out of my hole, and helps me become better at vocalizing what I need and want, and being honest with me about what's reasonable, and what's crazy (let's face it, sometimes I'm totally crazy..type A? that's me..)

I'm a growing, changing, evolving person, and thinking about this year, and turning 25 is really honestly, already doing things to my head. I'm trying to concentrate on the now, and babe is good at helping me do that.

Now is:
beach weekend
sister and mayme coming to town
philly
easter

beach getaway

babe is taking me to the beach this weekend. I have no idea where it is, or what it's like so I've been dreaming my way through the week. I'm dreaming of big fluffy pancakes, with fresh blueberries in them. Of a Salmon bake, with roasted asparagus, and some beach vacation cupcakes. Lots of adventures, snuggling, and walks on the beach. I am insanely excited.

a cottage and a condo

i'll take one of each please.






the selby, robert cain (via Adam)

us

babes for life!

Albuquerque Balloon Fiesta

I would really like to make it here someday.





Then I can sneak over to Santa Fe!

i need

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh




i want everything in marymaryhandmade's shop!

beyond frustrating

Takashi Dog Thompson. The little %&*#(*$ is being a monster. His most recent thing: peeing on everything. Tonight it was my native american quilt John got me, my laptop, me, and the carpet. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!

I've had it up to here, and I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do with him anymore, it's totally insane.

I'm ready to be out of this phase.

Dear dog, I love you, please be my friend. love, momma.

i want

sometimes i have too many tabs in my browser for days on end, because I see something I love, and don't know what to do with it. Here you go:





keep, keep, and catbirdnyc.

sick

hopefully you will not become horribly annoyed with all my lovey dovey smushy mushy posts. but i just can't help it. when you have the worlds best man in your life, it just kinda overflows. I had a bad day awhile ago, when I had first met Adam. I received this in a text message:



andddddddddd..he remembered me telling him awhile ago that milkshakes will always make me happy..so after an awful day yesterday, he showed up at my house, with a chocolate shake in hand. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. someone pinch me, is this real life?

wedding?

Urban's expanding it's portfolio once again, this time? Bridal! I'm kind of really excited about it. I can't wait to see what it's going to look like!

article here.

juniors

maybe this should be on wolfress, but since i've already reviewed juniors there..im posting it here.

Adam and I went to juniors, not together, but at the same time, accidentally when we first met. we've talked about their apple raspberry juice ever since, and headed back saturday afternoon amidst our day of errands and chores. I ate the yummiest scramble. So did he. nom nom nom. he's the bestest.

tallest man on earth

duh, we all know how much i love him. npr, all songs considered.

wall space

not that i have ANY room for more art or things for that matter on my walls..i'm OBSESSED with urban's new wall art in the March catalog. I think I may just have to buy them. at $38 each, i mean...

Philly!

on April 30th, at 11:55pm, I will be landing at dear old PHL and will have one week to laugh, eat, snuggle, stay up late, wake up early, hang, get coffee, see babies, see new houses, and bowl. duh. AHHHHHHHHHH im freaking out im so excited. wish the babe could come with..you'll meet him one of these days :) I was looking through my pictures and was remembering when I left LA to move to Philly, so weird. Anyways, i want lots and lots of this while I'm there:

work?

I love my job. It's been really fun lately. I found out today that our Spring Install was the best in the whole company! It was a couple of late nights, tall ladders, and some sweat, but it looks beautiful, and I am so proud to have been a part of it! We like to take pictures at work. here are some of them.